11 months. Stephen has been gone for 11 months. In just a few short weeks he will be home with us and I can't even explain the butterflies, excitement, nervousness and Love I feel as I type.
11 months. 11 months of not talking face to face, not holding hands, kissing, hugging. 11 MONTHS yet I love the man more than the day I married him.
This deployment has been LONG, longer for him I am sure than me but we are almost done. He will be sitting right here beside me in only a FEW SHORT weeks. In a few short weeks I can finally take that HUGE breath and EXHALE. I can finally breath again because he is safe and with the ones who love him more than anyting in the world.
11 months. He hasn't held his daughter. She could only crawl when he left. Now she is a little girl. She has her own little ideas and her own little style. I can't wait for him to experience her in the heart of toddler hood. I can't wait to see them together again, my heart skips a beat even thinking of it.
11 months of what may have looked like just me and Sophia. In all actuality Stephen was more present then ever. His strength, love and sacrifice is what kept me going. I don't know how he did it but his mental toughness is something I admire. We saw him almost every day for an ENTIRE year on the web cam. No matter what he had to do or sacrifice he made time for us. He didn't have to. But he did. And we love him for that.
11 months. He has been away for 11 months. Only a few weeks to go and time has seemed to stopped for us all. It is what I think the 24th mile of a marathon would be like. You are so close to the finish you can taste victory. You can look behind you and see the miles of pavement you pounded and are so VERY proud. At the same time you have a few short miles ahead . Your mentally and physically exhausted and second guessing if that finish line will ever come. Time just stops.
That is where I think Stephen and I both are. Time has stopped.
11 months. We can DO this. We are so close and I can feel his arms around me. I can invision him coming off that plane, arms wide open, smiling from ear to ear, waiting to see his girls.
11 months have gone by and in a few short weeks we will be a family again. A stronger family, whose love has been strengthened by distance.. A family who has seen our fair share of challenges but a great amount of joy from a year we feared would be nothing but misery. That is a true testament to life is all in what you make it...
11 months. He will be here soon.
Lots of Love,